What I See

honestly

i've been lying to my mind

or my heart

i'm not sure

but I have not feel beautiful

for a very long time

I have forgotten

how to feel confident

how to feel beautiful

maybe because of those words

that i hear often

made me too numb

that I can't feel beautiful anymore

I've missed you

and the old me

when i look at myself

I see an ugly girl

in the mirror

with nothing to offer

to the world

when I look at myself

I see a lonely girl

that no one will ever look at

as anything beautiful

I see a lot of weakness

that will haunt me forever

I miss my confidence

arrr me matey!

it's a different feeling

i wonder

how i would feel

when i would see you next

will it be the same

feeling

heart skipping a beat

breath taken away

cold sweats

on my forehead

eyes tearing up

all-smiles until the ear

the lines at the corner of my eyes

inviting you to look at me

will i have the same feeling

when i look at you

those eyes

that once was a part of me