fuck this

i dont know whats wrong with u ppl

i am making money for god's sake

honesty fairness my ass

like u never did those stuff

just cz ur old doesnt mean ur wise

stupid lah weh

i cud just curse u rite there in javanese n ull never know

n say wat

have to b essay?

150 words

wtf

for wtf

its a fucking review

other ppl do it n its ok

n u have to go nuts over my freaking points

u know what

fuck u

n ppl like u

yes i know thank you

for the hundredth time

yes i am fat

yes i got bigger

yes i have big thighs

now can you please stop reminding me of it

i realised it

i gained weight

i am fat

more fats

no muscles

thank you

now please stop

before i lose what's left of my self esteem

i need it to get through

thank you

it's been quite long..

i just don't feel like writing..

n yeah i realised i am boring..

i am bored and my life is boring too..

i only feel interesting when i am eating..

exam's finish..

now waiting and dreading for my results...

i hope im not going to fail anything..

another 2 months and im off to practicum..

dreading it..

worst nightmare..ever

im going to smk puncak alam..

how am i supposed to teach anyone

i have no fucking idea...

how am i supposed to teach teenagers..

i have no idea..

i myself am not an adult yet..

im 20..21 is adult..right?

whatever..

i myself am kidding with myself ...

i still sleep late..

wake up late...

facebooking..

lazy most of the time..

how am i supposed to do this practicum thing again?

well i supposed we all have to grow up somehow..

and i guess this is one way to do it..

by force..ha ha ha

God help me..

i have no clue watsoever with whatever i am doing..

i should have taken culinary arts..

open a pastry and cakes shop..

awesome..

the things i would do..

if only i knew back then what ive known now..