nervous in the light of dawn

Dreamed I was in a desert, without any luck
Storm-grey clouds, hovering above
Silence all around me, I was wandering alone
And I realised, there is nothing, anyone can really own

And I wished for guidance, and I wished for peace
I could see the lightning; somewhere in the east
And I wish for affection, and I wish for calm
As I lay there
Nervous in the light of dawn
As I lay there
Nervous in the light of dawn

It's hard to change, and it's hard to lose
It takes years for us, to be made smooth
You can use up our love, yeah, precious energy
To be tossed like a shell, from the hungry seas

And I wished for guidance, and I wished for peace
I could see the lightning; somewhere in the east
And I wished for affection, and I wished for calm
As I lay there
Nervous in the light of dawn
As I lay there
Nervous in the light of dawn

Hold me, in your arms, until I fall asleep
I'm so tired....
Hold me...

And I wished for guidance, and I wished for peace
I could see the lightning; somewhere in the east
And I wished for affection, and I wished for calm
As I lay there
Nervous in the light of dawn
As I lay there
Nervous in the light of dawn

chances..

all i need is a chance..
y can't i have those chances that they got?
what makes me so different from them?
i too have a brain..
i too have a nose and eyes and mouth..
my hair is as black as them..
but y can't i have those chances?
i wonder now why...
i told myself..
create or find an opportunity..
but where do i begin..
where do i find those unfamiliar path
that i could take..
who would help me..
who would gave me the chance..
to take the path that
they have been chosen for..
i too want that..
ever since...
well,
as long as i can remember
but i can only watch
those people go back and forth
while i am still here
waiting
for a chance
hoping
to be given a chance
they already made a difference
in their life
they already tasted the differences
but i am still here
bot going anywhere
not doing anything
maybe
just maybe
i am not good enough
there's all to it
the reason
why i am hoping
and not moving...